"Crona! Crona!" Her voice had called out from the sunburnt land, the roaring of a bike nearby. Why wouldn't she leave me alone to be swallowed in my own suffering and guilt!?
"Maka..." I murmured her name, like poison on my tongue. But it was a pleasant burning
She had ordered something from her partner, something like a command to stop. The bike had screetched nosily, and hurried footsteps were being heard, running closer and closer
"Crona! I finally found you! We'll get you out of there right away! Hey Soul, give me a hand!" Her voice stung me over and over again with every word, like tendrils of thorns wrapped around me bare skin.
"Why did you come? I didn't ask for your help
leave!" I felt horrible for yelling at her, but I wanted to die by myself!
"Crona?" Her voice spoke again. Another sharp tug by the thorns, agonies ripping through me like pure hell but also pure bliss.
"You don't understand anything about me, just leave me alone! I-I betrayed you
It's m-my fault D-Dr. Stein has gone crazy. I-I had Ms. Marie swallow one of Lady Medusa's snakes
" and after that I had blacked out, my endless ranting about the lady who had tried to look after me just exploded out of me at Soul and Maka, my torment pouring out of me like a river.
When I had stopped, Maka had slid down and ran towards me.
Good, let her hurt me. I was worthless and mistrustful as always! Let her punch, kick and scream at me if it made her feel better, just anything to please her and for me to get my punishment!
"I won't let you talk bad about yourself anymore!" She had growled at me.
Her words had surprised me, and I felt my eyes burn from the sun as they widened in shock at her words.
Why wasn't she screaming at me?
Why wasn't she punishing me like Lady Medusa does?
Maka wasn't like that
"For someone who is a timid weakling-
Good, here we go
"You're quick to hurt yourself, always thinking about others
" Once again her calm answer had surprised me, and it hurt me even worse when she let me go. I slunk my head down, just begging for her to hurt me, just for anything
I know. You have a really cute smile." Maka noted. If it had not been for the current situation, I would have blushed like made and bit my lip, but I just stared at her in shock.
Maka grabbed my shoulder roughly, pain shooting up my warm which I felt like screaming in frustration from. Just hurry up and hurt me like I should be!
"Medusa had you do it, right?! You did it because you had no choice, right?!" She begged me, her voice making my heart scream and claw at my chest to comfort her, but I dared not move a muscle
"You should have said so!" She cried to me, my head bowed in shame. I dared not meet her big, beautiful, jade green eyes. They would be only filled with hurt
She shook me roughly, just letting my body fall limp in her power. I kept my eyes to the ground, and I would even if it would kill me.
I could never have told her
such stupid loyalties I keep!
Sh-she's my mother
I h-hate her
I-I don't want to hurt anyone else
.! I don't want to make anyone sad
! I don't want to have to leave you, Maka!" I wailed loudly, tears streaming down my eyes onto the sandy floor, my heart thumping roughly. Maka grabbed me and pulled me into her arms, but I was too much of a state to retaliate, I just wanted to feel her arms
But I had to
"I-I'm a weakling, s-so I might betray you again!" I chocked on the subs that rolled out of my throat, tears just falling down the side of my face one after one, snot dribbling from my nose as I fell into an emotional breakdown.
"I'll never let it happen again. Never!" Maka growled, holding onto me tighter "So let's go home
she forgave me so easily
? How? Why? I didn't deserve someone as angelic as her!
But why complain? I was a weakling, and I wanted her more than anything. I wasn't going to lose something I could have and someone who wanted me.
So I gave in.
I let me head roll into her shoulder, and hesitantly put my arms around her, sobbing loudly into her shoulders as she held into me.
I wish she was completely mine
"Crona, wake up!" Maka whispered into my ear, my skin felt cold and sweaty. Her warm hand was pressed onto my shoulder, and she was shaking me gently.
"Another nightmare?" She murmured to me gently, her warm breath stirring behind my ear.
"I-I can't tell i-if it was or n-not" I whispered.
"Are you alright though
? Was it the dream about the desert again?" She whispered softly, her presence already calming me down from the mixed dream.
I nodded shakily, feeling her pull me from the couch into a sitting position. In surprise, she wrapped her arms around me tightly, her warm skin pressed against mine.
"It'll be alright, I won't ever let something like that happen again. Never" Maka promise me strongly, letting go of me.
Oh how I wish I could pull her back to me.
She ruffled my pink hair gently then cupped my cheek.
"Do you want me to stay with you?" Maka whispered unexpectedly, her big eyes warm and serious. She wasn't joking? She did care for me?
No, it was just a nightmare, of course! She was just trying to comfort me.
I nodded sleepily, blushing as she told me to move over and she tucked herself under the covers with me, a warm smile on her face. Maka wrapped her arms around my waist and hugged me tightly, closing her eyes to sink into a blissful sleep. There was no room for my arms, so I settled for hugging her back, resting my chin gently on top of her head, falling into a blissful and dreamless sleep.